*yuCkx!
Don't like that sub-contractor...
Everytime he come to the office he will "scan" me from top to toe...
The weird "stare" gives me the creeps..
*faINtx*
Feel like slapping him on the face and tell him
" CAN YOU STOP LOOKING?!!!"

I have been having this dreams almost every night..
All the worries i have always reflect on the dreams or the dreams reflects about it?

1st Dream
Calvyn has a new gf..
in the dream, i asked

"Why have you fallen for her?"
"You really want to know the answer?"
"Yes!"
"Firstly, you're low-educated, secondly, you're neither slim nor tall like her"

i felt like crying...
the words broke my heart...
my dreams always felt so real...
i'm feelin so sad..

2nd Dream
The ghost are always haunting me...
Always wanting to kill and torture me..
There was one of the part that I have to make a decision on an
agreement to find the victims for them to prey on.
I agreed with my sis and regret later because if we were to do that, we're actually harming these people...
So the ghost came after us...
It seems to reflect on the contract i've signed.. gosh..

3rd Dream
My dad followed me home and didn't want to leave...
He kept on pestering and harass us..
My mom couldn't take it...
He's trying to cheat us again..
why...

-------------------------------------------------------

when will all these ever end...

I'm constantly trying to hide away from all these...

I don't know what to do...

To be Continued..

Still couldn't find a chance to slp for the whole day..
i'm feelin so shag...

Patrick woke me up to watch the last episode of the Chinese drama..
hmm.. the story ain't that bad...

Clean the hamsters cage after the show..
kinda stink.. the food stinks alot.. bleah!
wonder why the hamsters can manage to eat it..

Went out in the evening to Party World Clementi..
Met Nicholas and his fren's - Gel, yang, lun, Luwvena, Meifen and Siqing..

Quite fun.. Haha..
Just that i don't really know what to talk about or ask..

Went home @ 11pm...

Had the meal from Mac as dinner cum supper.. haha

Went to bed at 2 plus.. shag + tired + slpy + missin my bed

Went to kayak in east coast on sat...

Met mandy about 3.15pm at e kayak rental place.
We set off to e sea at about 3.45..
Fine and windy weather.. the sea has a very strong current too..
We were stuck at the same place/spot for 30 mins!!
Finally manage to get back after rowing so hard... gosh.. muscle aching.. haha...
From the hawker centre, we walk to the other end to take our shower.
After that we decide to head back to e hawker to have our dinner... the food seems nice
After that we walk to where the food-court, 7-11 and mac is situated to rent a bicycle...
Cycle till 11pm.. *Smilex*
Enjoyed the walking and cycling tremendously!!
It has been such a long time ever since i last cycled and because it was at night so it felt so good!
So quiet and peacful, cooling air with sea breeze and calming too...

We had so much fun!!
Enjoying the suntan, the food, the walk, the talking and the cycling...
We were so tired when we board on the bus! haha..
Reach home ard midnight to 1am.. dead tired.. haha
Hope Mandy will be free for the following saturday and en en too~
*smilex*

I'm happy with life now..
but i still miss him lotx..

Going to East Coast tomorrow for kayaking!! hee :D *gRinx*
Probably we will be cycling after that!
Sure to have lots of fun.. :D

As for now, the usual thing - slacking in e office from mornin till noon...
Alice and Chee Mmeng went to a seminar so they won't be in the office..
Had my lunch at 3.43pm... so late isn't it? Haha..

YUCKS!!!!
Got a pervert showed me his dick using his webcam..
It's so disgusting!!!
*puKex*






*i'm missing you..

She's coming back today...

Agnes fall sick last night... got to bring her to a doctor later...
So i won't be in e office after 1pm..
Just in case... if not she faint how? haha..

Bought her 2 dwarf hamsters last night..
She's happy with it.. think she likes it.. she choose them herself..

I'm a person who has very negative thoughts about everything...
to me, it ain't good having too much positive one~

to expect the worst is better than hoping for a gd one and gets a thrashing at the end..

anyway..

the good thing about being single (that's for me):

1. He does not have to worry about me..
2. I have more free time than usual
3. I can shop more than usual
4. I can eat whenever i like
5. I can put on weight whenever i like


the bad thing about the good thing:

1. He doesn't have to bother now.
It seems more like he didn't care at all.
2. Have more time to think about more silly things. (kinda stupid)
3. I will spend more money.. (wasting time and money in fact)
4. Then i won't fit into those nice little clothes..
I have to spend more effort in slimming down then.. (dumb)
5. When i gain weight..
I get more and more noisy on complaining about e
weight gain and asking whether did i slim down or did i put on more weight




hmmm... life still goes on... i'm still the same old me... it seems like i wasn't even sad at all...

because...

i cling onto that stupid little hope i have...




**
Thus, according to the ancients, evil entered into the world, bringing untold misery; but Hope followed closely in its footsteps, to aid struggling humanity, and point to a happier future.

" Hope rules a land for ever green:
All powers that serve the bright-eyed Queen
Are confident and gay;
Clouds at her bidding disappear;
Points she to aught ? - the bliss draws near,
And Fancy smooths the way."
Wordsworth

During many centuries, therefore, Hope continued to be revered, although the other divinities had ceased to be worshipped.
**

During this 2 mths...

Being single ain't a bad thing...
but it makes me feel lonely sometimes...

sigh..

everyone are busy wth their own stuff...

daily routine:

wake up early in e morning
goes off to work
knock off pack up and heads back home
back at home, do some house chores..
watch tv
chat online
slp


AIN'T THAT BORING?!!!!

there's so many things out there that i can do!

but...

having fun alone ain't fun at all...




there ain't laughters, joy and happiness...
filled only with tears, sadness and loneliness..

*pardon me for e poor eng..
haa

Had diarrhea...
Didn't have a proper sleep for the whole night...
First with the toilet, second with the worries...

She woke up early in the morning to prepare for the trip to genting on a training course by the company. She left at 7am... She bid goodbye and she went off to the office to gather with the rest of her colleagues...

She called me ard 10 plus to tell me she's reaching the custom soon...
Her mobile line doesn't have auto-roaming... to reach her can be quite hard...

I'm starting to miss her now...

It reminds me of leaving Singapore 2 yrs back...

When i stayed in M'sia for that 2 mths... i miss her so much...

I'm constantly worrying bout her safety with the rest...

start to think too much...

all the negative thoughts...

and all i can do is pray..

for her safety...

i love her dearly..

There are so much things that i didn't know...

i thought everyone is e same...

it always turns out that i'm acting different from e rest of the girls...

why is it so?

i don't understand...

no one can explain that to me too...

he said "maybe u like to keep things to urself?"

well... maybe too much at times.. haha..

i still don't understand what he is thinking...

on the msn.. i msged him...
i told him someone is interested in me...
he replied "ask him to f**k off"

his reason: "u're mine!!"

conclusion:
what the hell is he thinking... when he dumped me because of her and now he dares to say this kinda thing... *fainTx*


*that person i talked to ain't calvyn

she's going to genting tomorrow...

the 2nd time she won't be at home with us...

i'm gonna miss mom...

3 days!!! gosh... unbearable... it's gonna be so quiet without her in the house...

it's kinda stupid to have to fill the title everytime...


I sux.. really..
i'm still thinking of him.. why am i so pathetic?
one of these days... someone will slap my face and tell me "MOVE ON WILL YA!"

that hurts... i've got it... not the slapping thou...
it's so hard to get over it... startin part are always like that...
I keep deceiving myself... sometimes to the point that i really can't take it...
these are all so stupid...

how does he do it?
if i can move on so fast...
i won't be missin him so much now...

His smile meant so much to me...

it makes me sad by taking it away from him...
thus... i cannot bother him...

but..
i just can't stop myself...
can i just stay in the mental hospital instead?

that would be better for me...
at least before i run along the streets scaring people...

i'm such an idiot...

i've told myself...
if i can.. avoid relationships...
this is painful enough...
it takes so long to heal...

i'm feeling so confused now...


Wishlist:
maO maO
new pair of stiletto heels
New mobile phone "Sony Ericsson K750i"
money for Os paper and tuition fees~
and for e cosmetics~ sObx..


i'm silly....
if i can choose...
it'll be...
my last day with him... he's smiling happily



if one day he were to see this...
think he'll hate me...

perhaps i don't know how to move on...
i really don't...

that sUx...

Went to the grooming course today... first lesson...

Kinda fun... pretty instructor. haha

was thinking... am i being cheated? too gullible...

stupid isn't it?

staying at home really bores me...

missin my bed..

you're just like this piece of music...

you can calm me down so fast...
the way u touch is so sweet & soothing...

i long for that touch again...
and how you'd pacify me when i cry in ur arms...

everything is so empty...
where are the laughter and smiles?

Went for an interview today...
e whole thing seems more like trying to sell me the cosmetic products and the grooming course.. haha..

the grooming course is free.. but the cosmetics are ex...

Shades Beverly Hills and another one.. can't rmb e name...
cost me $550..

dun think i can buy a new hp le..
sigh...

cant afford calvyn his bdae present liao.. SObX

N-Level
P.O.A - 2
English - 3
E-maths - 3
Combine humanities - 3
Chinese 4
Combine Sci - 5

O-Level
Eng - C6
maths - f9
p.o.a - e8
c.s - e8
c.h - e8
chinese - c6












i totally sux to the core..

It's Chun Ling's birthday...

Plead kok hong to go along..

Met him at Bishan Mrt station... after that we took a bus 13 to Cheong Mun's hse...
bout 9pm, kok hong arrived.. hee

after a while we head to serangoon garden there to have a meal... in celebration of his bdae.. bored...

kok hong, cheong mun, his boss and his other 2 colleague left first...

Left Vincent, his colleague foong, him and me.. he purposely did that..

Went to a nearby place to have some drinks..

went to Chun ling's hse to check e world map.. we made a bet... haha...

brunei is located in between sabah and sarawak.

forfeit is: ah foong and me had to stay in his house, vincent has to sms joanne

didnt get to slp at all.. he talk to me all night lo.. sian..

on the way back home
he ask me to be his gf.. wth..

I've won a pair of complimentary tickets to momo for the Red SeDOGtion Party @ MOMO.

No one is free to accompany me there or go anywhere else... -sigh-

Calvyn says he aint free... exams are coming and he's underage...
Shu en underage and doesnt want to meet me because she's wearing her school uniform
Mandy has work to rush
Nicholas is busy with work
Berlinda underage.

in the end...

I pick up the tickets.. the guy named mel chia was held up at the office because he was waiting for me to pick up the tickets... i couldn't find the place... so sorry to make him wait for me.. gosh..

head back home after that... on msn, i asked one of my net friend whether he wants e ticket to MOMO.. haha.. passed the tickets to him..

Luckily there was nicholas to chat with me.. he went home after work..

i got so tired from all e stress i got in work and e walking from clarke quay to mohd sultan...
doze off once i hit the bed... yaWNx

I just posted the wrong date.... haha...


`* Love ones *`
Calvyn
Mom
Cyndi
Patrick
Agnes
Aunt Eve & Uncle Edmund
Cousin Ivy
Uncle Jonathan
Aunt Li San
Ah mA

My small circle of friends
Shu En
Mandy

Friends
All my ex-classmates
All my irc friends
The people out there i know from Cineleisure
Friends of friends

I'd like to say my thanks and appreciation to all my love ones and my friends...


You all have been there for me when i need you the most...

i love you all..

my o-level result will be out on this friday...

his tone of speech changed on monday morning...
he sounded so sweet and gentle...
the only tone when we're together...
on his good mood morning...


How i wish that would never end...

i even dreamt about him..

how silly wasnt it?

but...

i really wished that would never end...

Sigh...

i just notice..
New year, chinese new year... he didn't call or sms me at all...

Does he have any feelings for me?
Does he still miss me?

sigh..

The long wait is still carrying on... so many more days....
When will it be the time?

J O Y C E
-from a French word meaning "joy"
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.
I edited the blogskin using Firefox
so if you're viewing it by I.E,
it may look abit weird.

Life is so short...

Always live life to the fullest
to never regret a day in your life

Good days gives you happiness
Bad days gives you experiences

Both are essential to life
******************************

I appreciated all the help,
love, care and concern from
all my love ones and friends..
I thank you all for that and
"I Love You aLL Dearly"

**Life is all about choices..**
I've made them and regretted
sometimes.. Silly isn't it?
Now it's the time to look ahead
to think of the positive side
and make each day better
and brighter
than the day before


**Blog under construction...**

Save the environment
I'm trying too. What about you?
I want to grow taller.
I want to shed off 20kg
No more everyday blues

mY FRienDsteR pRoFiLe

My name is:
Joyce Ang Geok Ling
My Chinese name:
Hong Yuling
Also known as:
Reiko or Joyah
My age:
21
My Horoscope:
Cancer & Leo
My Zodiac:
Tiger


-Her Addiction-
-Hubby - Chen Weirong

-Her Loves-
-Family
-Friends
-Sleep/Napping
-The companion of love ones
-Attention (Majority loves that too right? =p)
-To hang out with my SingTel colleagues
-Sounds from the small water fountain
-STRAWBERRIES!!
-Shopping! I'm a shopaholic =p

Wishes:
-To own an apartment at East Coast
-To start my own business
-Have a career
-Own debut
-Car license
-A car
-My first SGD10,000

-Interest-
-Singing
-Piano
-Personal Grooming
-Kayaking
-Swimming
-Cycling
-Nap
-Nap + Suntan
-Star/Cloud gazing
-Camping

-Describe HER-
-Vainity
-Her bag of cosmetics
-Her long straight hair
-Constant whining about being fat
-Noisy & loud
-Crazy and very emotional
-Shy with strangers
-Petty
-Forgives but cannot forget
-Grumbles and mumbles a lot
-365 days, 7/1 whines non-stop
-Stingy


I've taken a few test and these are the answers
[I wonder if it's true....]:
At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

Never give up in yourself.
Have efficiency in the things you do.
You make your own choices.
If you have to fight for the things you deserve, then do it. If not, who will?
A lot of things starts with, "I wish to do it" or "I don't wish to do it"
What everybody owns now comes out from the one who dares to create,
think and dream.


If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I am imperfect.

-Nose Job
-Double Eyelids
-Long Lashes
-Bigger Eyes
-Thinner Lips
-To be skinny/underweight
-To be tall
-Ipod
-Sony Ericsson W910
-More pocket money
-New clothes
-New stiletto heels
-New Guess Bag and wallet
-New cosmetics
-To be pampered

LBedazzled
Dainty
LPristine
LRomance
LMagic
Melanie: CC486
Sassy Shirt: YN438
Slinky Slip: JN312
Sandra Slip: HD430
MICHELLE SLIP: YN439
Davina Slip: CC415

My family
Eldest Sis-Cyndi
Youngest Sis-Agnes
Cousin/Biaomei-Ivy

My Friend of 9 years and the company
Jo

Friends
My Nai-baby
Tania

Lovely Tng's
Ruvyn
Chervyn

Colleagues in SingTel [Telephoney House]
The one who has little lambs - Mary Teo
Little Red Riding Hood - Sam
The adorable - Lin Lin
The red fishball otah - Hong Yuan
The Lovely lady - Eka
The one who loves slapping flies - Lydia
Paparazzi no.2 - Xiu Zhi
Ask her about Korea - Khoon Yi
Mentor Zi Yang

Colleagues in Keppel [ComCentre]
Suriannie
Jasmine

Tortoise
Nicholas, Junyuan

IRC Friends
Shawn
Wee Leong
Alvin
angelgir
Felix
Jennier/iFish
Jing Ai
Anju
Jason
Justin
Bakieee
Lynnette

Friends
Belle

MUSIC SCHOOLS
Tiny Box Music
The Art of Music

The Impressive Singer

Felicia Chin
Patricia Mok
Dasmond Koh
Bryan Wong
Quan Yi Feng
None
None
None
None

Online Shops
Checkout
sweetgift
Fashion
Hello Kitty
Face Up Facet
Dora's Little Hut
Online Boutique - Butik Gue

Renee & Shop
Renee
Reneethy-million

UsefulLinks
Photoshop Tutorial

Interesting Links
Sudoku
Yuan Wei Ren
Rockson
a CUTE GIRL!! - Chloe

The People of Nuffnang
Constance
Judy
My Lacy Closet
The Samsui Lady
Daisy
Belle
Shiya
Simun
Qi
Chai Leng
Queenie

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