sighh.. he was upset.. early this morning.. msg him on his mobile twice.. no replies.. weird.. maybe he really wants to give up.. i must have hurt him alot again.. sighh

blues..

what am i doing.. sighh.. i feel so.. cmi.. aRGHHHhhh! i'm such a bad person.. when i die, god will punish me and send me to hell.. arGHHhhh.. i'm crazy.. T.T

i cant really remember the dates.. so i'll just roughly relate what happened these few days ok?

on the thurs i suppose.. met gaidon and we went to pick up beta after he finish his work at 7. in the car.. he put his hands on mine.. normally i'll hold his hand back.. but then.. i didnt.. den after beta get in the car we went to ms to meet the rest..

at ms.. i was walking with hui hui all the while.. didnt tok much to gaidon.. we were walking around and waiting for the time to watch their movie.. after they've gone for the movie, beta, gaidon and me went to play pool.. all was quiet.. we didnt tok much.. later on, gaidon saw his friend so beta and i played while waiting for him.. after he came back they played another one more round then we went off to "Lau Pat Sa" to have our dinner..

Beta ordered a bowl of soup while i ordered chinese cuisine style of "Mee Goreng" (got to wait so long -.-) gaidon didnt have much appetite so he didnt have his dinner. after that he send beta back home first. he was quite upset in e car.. we didnt talk much and i'm not feeling well..

when we reached my place, he send me up but i was too busy on the phone with hui hui so we didnt really tok much after i went up.. i put my things and quickly went out to call him to wait for me downstairs and got change and went down.

we clarified things that happened on the tues nite.. but by then.. it seems like.. sigh

den move on to sat.. was late for work.. made the final decision.. it was a tough one.. i cried.. i told him i've decided to break up.. Calvyn is still in my heart.. i love the both of them at the same time.. but of 2 different feelings..

he was very down and upset that whole day.. luckily there's daryl, beta and jackal there for him.. sigh... i've hurt him so much.. thousand apologies can never heal his broken heart.. sighh...

i met him on that saturday nite.. he passed me back my conditioner and gave me 20 strawberry lollipops which i requested days before...

we talk and walk around.. i proposed to him about a new kind of r/s.. we'll be back together but not as in bgr... maybe something like a fling? something with no commitments.. sighh.. i guess thats e best way i can come up with and no stress at all.. if one day he comes across a girl that he likes, he's free to go for her..

he was quite down when i was at Calvyn's hse on sunday..
i played with the perm thongs. permed my hair and played with it.. i still prefer long hair with perms at the bottom.. the dolly style.. :p nice~~~

the next day.. my hair tends to curl abit on e ends -.-
after work waited for dar dar to send daryl back home first. intend to take public transport.. cos he might take quite long to reach.. but he offered to pick me up.. we went to ps to watch the movie snakes something..
the movie is so gross.. oh my tian.. *pukes* disgusting.. but a few part quite funny.. saw melvin and disk at the carpark while dar dar top up his cashcard. chat a while.. later on we went to khatib to have my dinner.. fried kway tiao.. MY FAV!!!! hehehe.. i was sick but still had oily stuff.. lol.. then i went to shop and save to buy my peach juice and tidbits.. :p

was so tired when i reached home.. had a quick shower, drank my peach juice and ate my tidbits and hit the bed immd.. chat on e phone for a while and doze off immd after i hang up. gosh.. was feeling so dead and sick.. woke up late in the mornin.. -.-

OH MY GOSH!!!!

i'm craving for jelly now.. peach jelly!!!

and the other type.. hmm.. the type u get from e supermarket and make it urself.. with flavours like strawberry, raspberry, lime, lemon, pineapple, orange!!! OMG!!!!! i wan jelly!!!!

29th August 2006

things has turn so sour between me and mom.. walked passed her on e streets today.. greet her and said bye bye.. she didnt even bother to say hi at all.. look at me like some stranger.. sigh.. all her new boyfriend's fault. hate him. disgusting fucker.. so damn fucking cheeky and a bag guy i suppose.. ARGH!!! sobx..

broke up with jack on the 26th aug.. i cried.. sigh.. it wasnt easy..

now... i just hope tt i will really focus on my studies and after that about the renovations of my new room. moving with sis during nov-dec.. cant move in so soon yet.. sighh..

so soon.. 1 yr has passed.. arGHh!!!! and i'm still wasting my time and money.. not saving much yet.. pathetic isnt it?

24th August 2006

so he really was angry with me ytd.. jealousy... =\ u could have asked me at least before being that fierce.. sighh.. =\ weird.. he asked me to slp on the floor.. nobody ask me to slp on the floor before =\ except my aunt's hse.. anyway i dun stay there often.

things are quiet after work.. didnt read any msgs or look at my phone cause it was on silent ever since the movie and i forgot to switch it back again.. watched a movie - Chai Lai Angels. It's the comedy version of "the Charlie's Angels". quite funny..

Feeling so confused.. after the breakup with cal.. my first piority has been studying, starting a new life with new frens, trying to settle all my problems and not let it drag any longer.. sighh.. but it seems like i did have alot of new friends now but problems and stress just adds on and on.. i seem so shag now.. pimples popping out from my face.. dark eye rings... and that shag look.. feeling sick everyday.. having headaches and minor sore throat.. sighh..

dar dar fall sick le.. he said he had a headache and fever. hope he's fine now.. think he's resting now..

looking forward to my pay day.. damn broke now.. =\ arGHHH!!!! missed my english oral this monday.. forgot about it. =\ now i'm sure i'm gonna flunk that paper. =( got to retake again.
EVERYDAY BLUES!!!! T.T sObx

23rd August 2006

*unsure of his feelings.. sOBx*
a new day... passed 12am i suppose... we ordered mac... i was too tired and not feeling well so i doze off while lying on the bed. suddenly, my phone rang, it was nicholas and we chatted for a while. during the chat i think dar dar called to check about the delivery cause it seems to take ages. not long after the delivery man came. i was busy and too engross chatting on the phone to notice what's going on. the next thing i knew dar dar is holding the bag of food and drinks trying to open the door so i asked him, "do you need my help?" and opened the door for him and he replied, " can't you see?". that's what he replied i suppose... fierce.. the first time he spoke to me in this kind of tone. sighh... before we went back to his house i suppose he wasn't on a good mood. That's because after we send beta back to his hse and dar dar made a call and raised his voice (gosh.. that's the first time he did that infront of me.. i better keep my mouth shut before i say anything wrong). back to e mac thing.. erm.. so later on we ate in his room. which is like so weird cos we didn't talk to each other at all.. after he finished his food he clean up his things quickly and came back to the room. still.. no conversation strike at all.. the fries were too soggy so it actually turns me off on e eating part.. and the quietness.. it's like he's angry with me but he doesnt wanna say it.. so i clean up the things and brushed my teeth.. when i'm back he's alrdy on e bed slping.. i was like.. "sighhhhh.. mux be something i've done.. ". he went to bed without saying good night... sighh.. so i turn off the lights and lied on the bed.. still reflecting on what i've done and thinking what went wrong... den i poke him on e arm and looked at him (trying to figure out what to say it to him and wanting to apologize if he's mad at me). but before i could say anything, he told me, "got to wake up early tomorrow so slp early". arGHHHHH!!!! what did i do??!!! T.T the whole night didnt sleep well at all.. waking up a few times and checking if he's still angry with me (i presumed). =\ i cant sleep with my mind keep thinking.. in the end i've got a headache in the morning ='( when i woke up.. he didnt tok to me again.. arghhh... i feel like bursting into tears.. this kind of guessing thing actually drives me crazy. so i went to shower... thought of going to work alone.. don't want to bother him sending me to work as i'm working at 9am and his interview time is at 10.30am. =\ after shower i put on my make up and planned to go to work alone.. so i pack my stuff and made the bed. he woke up.. omt.. =\ den he mentioned something about "it's so late already. you're gonna be late". then i told him, "i can go to work myself :)", and he replied, "don't be silly", then he went to take his shower while i walk out of the room holding my bag still thinking (i wanna go to work by myself.. it's ok) then he asked "what are you doing?", then i replied him "oh.. i'm going to sit here and wait for you". gosh.. i'm so afraid to trigger something like he might get angry or upset or just something else.. =\ so i wait patiently in e living room for him to get ready.. wow.. the first time i see him in his office wear. nice.. haha.. but i didnt dare to talk much so i just kept that to myself. on the way to work.. we didnt talk much.. almost never.. other than a few questions or just one question that i asked him.. sighhh.. it feels weird.. he didnt even looked at me at all.. maybe due to the heavy traffic... or because i'm just too ugly or because he's still mad at me. =( wednesday blues... when we've reached my workplace, he bid goodbye without kissing me.. which is kinda weird.. so i gave him the kiss instead.. weird.. his response seems a bit unwilling.. sighh.. wanted to tell him that he look nice today and to wish him good luck for his interview but he seems like.. sighh.. so i smsed him instead (the sms was about wishing him gd luck on e interview) and he did replied, "thanks baby". phew.. but still.. my heart is unsure.. my mind is still thinking and heart is still pumping hard and fast everytime i think about it... hopefully everything goes out well.. sighh.. what a day to start with.. i longed for that warming hug.. ='(

19th Aug 2006

couldnt remember much of what happened this few days... too tired.. sighh.. lack of sleep. yawnx..

was late for the past 2 weeks.. oh my tian (omt).... jody complained about my lateness. =/ kinda dislike her.. noisy *****

met dar dar everyday.. *giggles* wow... dar dar look so nice ytd. hehe... *muackx* it's been a week since we're together.. haha.. seems like a month to me.. :p

having a barbeque at Uncle Jonathan's friend's hse. lolx.. they're out there doing the cooking and eating while i'm in e room blogging and waiting for my dar dar.. i miss him.. ;p he's coming with daryl..

Lolx.. while i was in e lorry with uncle edmund, he asked
"does your boyfriend smoke"
" yea. why?"
" cause i didnt saw him smoke that day so i was wondering..."
"i see... he does.. but he respect the elders so he didn't. not nice anyway. haha"
"oh.. don't have to worry. you could have told me and i'll offer him one. hahahaha"

thats what i like about my family.. they're always having these friendly attitude with each one of us.. thats why there wasnt a barrier within my aunt and uncle and e kids. ;p i love them.. as much as i love my parents.. maybe.. more than my parents *giggles* i love my cousin too.. treat her like my own sis.. even better.. lolx..

well.. stop till here then.. will blog again for the event after this blog some other day... yawnx.. so slpy and tired.. wonder where dar is now.. missin you.. *muackx*

16th Aug 2006

Was damn shag that day.. didn't slp for the night.. after dar dar send me to work he went back home.. we chatted a while and he went to slp after that..

was so shag and dizzy.. scalded myself again. =/ hands and legs together this time. sighhh... clumsy isnt it. sighh

tired..

15th Aug 2006

after work dar dar came to fetch me with daryl. then we went to holland village to have "yu pian mi fen" *giggles.. daryl mentioned the people working in e kitchen was staring at me like they've never see a girl before. lolx... den we search for seats and got a place in e yellow box zone where they can smoke. then dar dar and daryl went to order the food and drinks.. while we're eating there is this cat which roam ard that area.. gosh!!! i'm scared of cats!!! ='( then daryl keep scaring me. >.<~ later when dar dar finish his food got one lady keep starring at him cos he smoke.. that lady never notice she sat in e yellow zone i presume.. den keep starring at my dar dar. hmMPFx! angry ar! wish the next few days ppl ard her keep smoking and choke her with the smoke. hmmpfx! *i know i'm evil.. i was never kind-hearted anyway*

after that dar dar drove us to town and daryl can help hui jing find some postcards which has a short permed hair and a lady wearin yellow - madamn wong for her project.. on e way.. dar dar forget to slot in his cashcard before entering e ERP. dotx.. he'll be fine $11 plus i think.. sighh.. *muackx dar dar* later his mom gonna nag him le.. poor dar dar *hugx*

after daryl bought the post cards we went back to the car. wah!! dar dar got a fine... and his car damn dirty liao =\ poor car.. dar dar angry wor.. cos someone go push his rear mirror again.. den send for car wash.. den went we reach ms.. dar dar notice his rear mirror got one big scratch again! dar dar heart pain sia.. his "wifey" so poor thing... *hugx dar dar*

den daryl went to find hui jing while we go to raffles city shopping mall to meet beta, ben, panda, joyling, don and lawry. kinda weird.. first time i go and meet them with dar dar.. i was so nervous den i hold dar dar's hand tightly. *giggles*

was so tired.. can hear lawry talking loudly during my rest.. later dar dar send beta back and we went to meet daryl.. after that we're suppose to go to have some "la kopi" session. lolx :p but suddenly ting ting called me.. she sounded so emo.. sighh.. den dar dar speed up.. scary.. sighh.. *muackx dardar*

den i ran up to e hse.. quarrelled with mom.. just don't understand what she's thinking or doing.. how can she just do something like that.. sighh.. still as childish as before. ting ran out of the house and i chase after her. sighh... brought her to find dar dar at the carpark. when we reach there, he was actually searching for us. so we've got to wait there for him. after a while dar dar came back with daryl.. den later dar dar send daryl back home.. daryl have to work the next day so we didnt want him to accompany us through the night with us till late.. so after sending daryl back home, dar dar drove to the seletar dam area...

it's quite quiet there... few cars can be seen.. we stayed there till my sis complained about the mosquitoe bites. so we send her back home and i accompanied dar dar a while more..

dar dar send me to work that morning.. (16t Aug)

14th Aug 2006

talk to hui hui on e phone till i knock off.. dar dar came with daryl to fetch me. hee... den he drove to ms to check the time for e movies and seatings.. hehe.. den they played pool and waited for hui jing..

after the pool, we bought the tickets for "my super ex-girlfriend" and went to fetch hui jing at city hall. hehe

the movie wasnt as nice as wad we expected.. very lame.. after that.. dar dar drove us to hui jings hse den daryl send her home.. after that dar dar drove me home and send me up..

lolx.. den dar dar kiss me goodbye den daryl saw that and said something.. LOLX.. den he do it purposely infront of daryl. lolx..

daryl sure is a joker man.. always make me laugh although sometimes he nv do anything at all.. lolx..

11th Aug 2006

after i've reached home from ecp.. *giggles* quickly prepared for work.. late for work again.. but ivy falled sick so took an urgent leave and took all the invoices back to the office before i go off and pick up ivy to bring her to e doctor...

went to the polyclinic... her face and eyes were swollen.. gosh.. seems kinda bad to be.. by the time we're out of e clinic it's 1pm alrdy.. gosh.. den we went to bought food and bring it back home to eat... ivy used the com while i lied on her bed getting some rest... talk to dar dar on the phone for a while.. *giggles* after that i doze off to slp immediately... feeling feverish.. omg.. body was hot and was feelin cold.. sObx T.T

woke up ard 6.30 dar dar's waiting for me alrdy!! gosh.. i'm slow.. was late for the outing =after that went to watch the fireworks with dar dar, wawa and muta.

after that they went off and we went to EQ to meet daryl and his gf hui jing. ^^
the first time i see hui jing. ^^ she's a very nice girl.. very friendly~~ hee
den she asked dardar " is she ur gf?" dar dar dare not reply den he ask her to ask me.. den i kept quiet... lolx.. den later dar dar hold my hand.. *giggles* while daryl went to the washroom dar dar suddenly kissed me.. lolx.. i was quite stunned actually.. lolx *shy*

the rest of e day.. think i couldnt rmb much.. brain cells are dying due to insufficient rest*

10th Aug 2006

gosh... i've got so much work to finish today!!! oh yea.. sweetie = dar dar. hehe.. find it too girly to call him sweetie.. "sweetie" seems more for e girl. :p

he drove to my workplace to fetch me and den drove to beta's house to meet him for dinner together. when to the pek kio market there to have their dinner.. i wasn't hungry so didnt eat.. beta bought a packet of fried rice so he can have it when he's hungry later...

after he collect his food we went off and send beta back home. den dar dar send me back home to accompany me to do my work. hehe.. i went upstairs to change while he waited for me @ the void deck.. cos i'll be doing my work there.

dar dar accomapanied me... den while i'm writing/recording the entries he help to flip the pages so it'll speed up abit. hehe :p finally finished the work and i went up to take a fast shower... weee

went down to dar dar's car.. the smell of my hair filled up his car.. nice~~ i love the smell of my hair.. the fruity fruity smell.. ^^v *giggles*

we went to adam road to have mutton soup as our dinner.. after that dar dar drove to west coast park for our walks.. hehe.. hmm.. the place isnt as good as east coast park... i leaned on dar dar's shoulders for a while to rest.. I'm getting so shag due to insufficient slp.. later dar dar drove to east coast park for our walks.. *giggles*

the place is soooooo refreshing and cooling.. the smell of e sea... the feeling of e breeze and that fresh air.. omg... i'm in love with that place.. we went to sit at one of the bench... it feels so nice.. *giggles* den i was wearing a jacket but dar dar wasnt.. so i gave him a hug to keep him warm.. his hands are cold.. gosh.. we waited for e sun rise.. but we couldnt see e sun at all.. i think i told dar dar "the sun is hiding in yishun now" lolx... when he drove me back, we saw e orangy sun rising high up in e sky and i told him "see dar dar!! the sun is hiding in my place~ ^^v" lolx.. :p

wow.. it was close to 8 when i reach home.. dar dar doze off on his way home.. so dangerous.. i was worried.. =
*love ya.. muackx*

15th Aug 2006

early in the morning mom's screaming loudly at her. she didn't get up from bed at all.. lasted for almost an hour.. gosh.. what a bad morning to start with..
she didnt want to go to school.. didnt explain at all.. all she answers is "please do not ask me anymore"

sighh.. it is getting harder to teach her.. she's too rebellious.. sometimes she doesnt appreciate it at all.. kids.. sighh.. she's one of e biggest prob other than mom. get worst each day it seems.. it just adds on.. and all i can do is just sighing.. i dont have e patient to talk to her due to her tone, noise level and attitude. she's been like these ever since pri 4.. for her to change.. i think it's gonna take a lifetime. =\ the way she talks sometime seem to scare off the people around her.. maybe she never had any responsibilities to tie her down so she do things w/o thinking.

my head is feelin so heavy right now. when will the day come when she's a grown up lady.. hope she doesnt regret the decisions she makes now.. sigh..

will she be fine like the other kids?
can she?


*heart filled with all the worries about her*

wow... few days never blog.. :p these few days.. was out darling.. hee ^^v

11th aug 2006... 1st day...

think for e next few more days.. i'll blog less.. lolx.. *busy u know* :p

9th August 2006.

Part II (My First Date with dar dar *edited*)
the ndp ended @ 8pm.. i was late.. couldn't find my denim m)phosis bag. zzz.. sweetie has reached!! waiting for me at the carpark of e opposite blk cos he didn't know which one i stayed in. he called me and later drove to my blk and waited downstair.. ^^

the traffic was kinda heavy.. We are watchin the movie "Click" @ Plaza Singapura GV. The seats in gv plaza can bring up the arm rest. ^^ the whole movie was funny. some parts like e all e dogs that the family bought likes to make out with the plush toy ducky. lolx.. and during their make out the dog poke e guy. rofl* :x

after the movie.. sweetie brought me to east coast park to have dinner.. cos it's late already ard 11 plus near to midnight and the place we intend to go sells finger food at that time only so we went to mac to have some food. after that we took a walk there and chit chatted. it's been a long time ever since i last walked and talked so much.. it felt so good everytime i'm there.. sweetie's a nice companion. hehe.. we took a sit at one of e bench to rest and talk.. later it started to drizzle so we quickly walk back to mac for shelter.. sighh.. the rain spoilt the night. den it started to rain heavily... we waited for another 15 mins and it stopped for a while and drizzle again... so we ran back to sweetie's car.. *drenched* lolx... :p

then sweetie send me home. in e car.. sweetie asked if i'm restin i think.. den i turn over to look at him den he gave me the O.O expression and told me i'm opening my eyes so wide suddenly.. lol

when we reach my blk.. he send me up.. i was like so shy then!! lolx.. quickly walked out of e lift after saying bye.. :p took a peep down to see sweetie walking to his car and drive away ^^

*giggling while openin the door* :p

9th August 2006

National Day. Hui hui called to ask me to accomapny her to kallang to find jerry.. cos i promised shu en that i'll meet her today.. so i turned her down.. chat with hui hui for a while.. tired.. sis called.. she says "meet @ 3pm in yishun" gosh.. has to go down.. cos her bf's elder bro will be there..

zzz... e taxi driver shouted at me.. wtf... met sis.. went up to her new flat.. nice!! big.. a 4A room flat. a nice room for me.. hehe.. muackx* i think i wanna repaint my room.. *giggles* who wans to offer some help? wanna buy a piano and put it in my room.. FINALLY!!! hehehe..

it's quite near to the park.. very windy.. more privacy over there.. can move in between sept - oct.. i'm feelin so happy~~ finally!! hehe..

hmmm... actually e owner and their relative bought e 2 units together.. sis suggested that i find a guy and get married soon. =/ they took the four room unit so left with e 5 room one.. i was like.. wth =/ den her bf suggested "den u can start finding a 90 yr old man" lolx..

after that went to have dinner.. didnt have any appetite at all.. they went to walk around in northpoint while i go back home. *date with sweetie* lolx.. called sweetie.. he's napping.. pig lo.. haha.. he didnt have a proper slp.. strain his neck.. i'm tired too.. shoulder and neck... stiff.. sighh.. i'm feeling so lethargic now... yawnx..

sweetie comin over soon i guess.. omg.. i still havent decide wad to wear.. T.T


To Be Continued...

8th August 2006

Today is the 15th of e lunar Seventh Month... so.. got to "bai bai" my grandpapa.. *giggles* i miss him soooooo much..
woke up early in the mornin.. by my siblings as usual and my mom... she thot i'm suppose to work today. i went back to slp again and woke up ard 8 plus close to 9... chat online for awhile before i head out.. msg sweetie on my way out... lolx.. nv reply at all.. guess he's still in his dreamland.. at the station, mei mei called.. she say meet @ city hall 5.15 with muta. got to tell sweetie have to push forward e movie so we can watch and meet them afterwards.. sighh

reach aunt's place ard 11... aunt bought me some food.. so it's my breakfast cum lunch.. after tt.. helped ivy to make her bed.. after tt.. chat online for a while den helped ivy straighten her hair.. so hard to do it.. cos her hair too short =/ was alrdy kinda frustrated cos of e hot temp and suddenly lawry called.. didnt notice so by e time i pick up he hung up alrdy.. zz.. and den he called again.. zzz... i wanted to do her hair asap cos she's going out and i wan to chat online den he call.. always on e wrong time.. and i thot he called again due to impt matters =/ end the call as soon as i can and carried on with her straightening. she just dash out of e house after she's rdy and forgot to keep e tools. =/

have to call sweetie cos he is suppose to meet me for the movie "Click". think he's still sleeping... he picked up e call finally :p told me he slept at 5am. O.o omt.. so late.. nvm den.. we can catch the movie some other day... so he hung up and went back to slp i suppose.. but later on he smsed me.. lolx.. so dont think he managed to go back to slp.. :p

after a while more, it's time to get rdy and go to the temple to pay respect to great grandpapa and great grandmama. hmmmm.. think i went there every yr.. left there ard 3 plus i think.. went to have some cold desserts in that area - balestier. called sweetie.. *giggles* he's in katong.. meeting me in marina square later..

took e train with grandmama and aunt.. they alight at somerset so they can shop at OG while i alight at cityhall.. called hui hui to check the time she's meeting me.. she happen to be at marina square too.. haha.. she's with her frens.. so i go there to meet her first while waiting for sweetie.

after i met hui hui.. roughly about 10 mins later sweetie arrived.. he came with jack aka beta/delta. *giggles* den we went to burger king to have some drinks while hui hui's younger bro have some food. wait for mei mei and muta to arrive.. after that we went up to the arcade.. wanted to catch a movie but the tickets are sold out... sighh... so we went to play pool instead. lawry complained to lizard that we quarrelled. -.- we didnt even start one. ard 7.40 we left to have our dinner.. ms is so pack then... went to mankan sutra to have dinner..

omt.. it's so pack there... sighh.. got to wait for the ppl there to finish their food before we can get the sits.. finally found one but insufficient chairs. den beta and sweetie went to walk ard. sighhh... deb muta went to find one and came back with a pissed off face. lolx.. had fried hokkien prawn mee as dinner. ^^v nice~~ and zq offered to peel the prawn shell. we manage to finish dinner before 9 and walk to e open space to view the fireworks.. think sweetie missed e first few parts.. sighh.. it was so nice~~!! ^^ recorded it using my phone.. *giggles* last year.. i watched it after dinner with calvyn.. sighh.. he forgot abt it... sObx...

after the fireworks we went to marina square again.. my falsies keep dropping off.. =/ we went to gv to check the time for the movies... after the long waiting.. everybody finally decide to go to jalan kayu for dinner cum supper.. we go in seperate ways and meet at jalan kayu.. stuck in e traffic.. *giggles* i kept asking the meter thingy.. lolx.. sweetie mentioned i got a spellin error in my earlier post. i spelled meter as metre.. lolx. cos i cant differentiate. :p so i choose metre. lolx.. kinda dumb.. should have checked the dictionary.. :p wondered hw did i manage to pass my eng.. :p

reached jalan kayu.. e car park was full.. jackal shifu's car behind sweetie's. LOlx.. beta said "which tortoise keep flashing the light". lolx.. den sweetie and shifu parked their car and we went to have our food. lolx...

after that sweetie send me home.. sighh.. dun feel like going home so early.. but didnt dare to mention it. =/ when i got off the car.. sweetie passed me a box of strawberries~~ ^^v MY FAV!! :p *giggles* so sweet of him.. after tt he drove to meet daryl... while i come back and chat on irc..

now then i know Omega is SnowWolf. =/ alright.. thats for the day i suppose... hehe..

Overall points for the day: 90/100 ^^v

06th August 2006

was late for e movie the lake house which starts at 5pm... i arrived in ard 5.40pm. when i was about to go to my sit.. i notice it's all occupied!! so i went over to the other side to see.. in the end it's occupied too!! so i walked in and squat down in front of jack. lolx.. so funny.. den sweetie ask e lady beside him to move to e next sit cos she's sitting on my sit. lolx.. den sweetie say she very rude.. nv apologize at all. lol.. so i sat beside sweetie durin e movie.. kinda weird.. cos we dont talk much. :p the movie is so nice!!! omg. i dont mind watching it again.. nearly cried.. so touching.. i'm such an emotional creature.

After the movie, we went to have our dinner at swensens. hee.. i'm e last one to finish my food. :p and after tt we go to kbox for singing session!! *giggles* it's so funny.. i chose e song "bu pa bu pa - jocie guo mei mei" for jackal shifu to sing.. when the song started everybody went out of e room. lol.. left me and him and his gf. after ktv sweetie offered to send me home.. hehe... he's so nice.. wow.. he drive so fast wor... scary.. he got an interesting metre reading tool on his steering wheel.. very small.. haha.. cute.. as i was havin a headache i doze off on on e way back.. haha.. sweetie's nice.. he send me all e way to my blk *giggles*

gosh... was so tired... slept at 4 in e mornin i guess... tired...

5th august 2006

Suppose to meet mei mei @ 2pm.. was late again.. she had to wait for me.. den we walk to marina square to have our lunch. since yoshinoya has more space to sit so i chosed there for lunch. hehe... mei mei chose e one table with leather chairs. after lunch we walk around shopping for the things. i wan to buy a new pair of heels so we went to look at e heels. *giggles* chosed a black stiletto heels with laces. hehe.. my favourite type. as national day is ariving the shop has this 41% off on e 2nd pair of heels for e celebration. so mei mei bought something similar as mine but w/o the backstrap. nice!!! we bought e same heels from e same shop. and we move on to buy her sling bag.. i noe the lady.. she's e wife of e boss.. haha.. use to work for them. she dont recognise me. lolx.. and later on i want to change out of my loose camisole so we went to shop for clothes. lolx.. we were wearing out new pair of heels and changing new tops. lolx.. it's always fun going out with mei mei. We bought a different top from the same shop. *giggles* by the time we're ready, it's already 5. lolx.. we are always late for e steamboat outing while shopping.. e steamboat outing is at 5pm. the previous steamboat outing happens to be on 5pm too and on e both times and we were late. lolx..

we reach there ard 5 plus.. the ppl who came where:
Ben
Jerry
Coolrock
aCowMoos
Betrayal
Mrdave - Zell
Wawa
Don
habani
berricia
frozed
hui hui
lizard
lawry and his 2 frens
sugarzq and
june.

after e steamboat we bid half of e group gd byes and took e car down to esplanade for the fireworks.. lawry drove his dad's car while zq drove june's car. lol.. it was fun...

we were stuck in e traffic am so we can only view the fireworks from inside e car
lolx.. it's so cramp and we're squeezing each other. lolx.. after that we proceed to changi village and Old Changi Hospital. lawry, lizard, zell, zq, don and hui hui went to walk ard while june, mei mei, lynette and me sit in e car. when they're back we send wawa and zell back home. lolx.. mei mei give funny directions to lawry.. den he got so confused.. lolx.. den we went out.. took the wrong road. made alot of u-turns.. lolx.. on e way sending zell back we got seperated.. so we decide to meet at bukit batok. lolx... when we met at bukit batok... we decide to drive to geylang to have durians. on our way, some kids cross the road on e red man and in between june and lawry's car. zq was quite angry and shouted at them..

at geylang we saw some ladies wearin just bra only.. those were the prositutes working in that area. den we had some durians and mangosteens!! weeee!!! my favourite!! lawry was persistant in sending us home.. lolx.. but in e end we still took june's car back home. and lawry gave the face.. lolx.. thanks june for e ride~~ ^^

*overall: i've had lots of fun*

watched "Tokyo Drift" with wawa mei mei, don, shorty, joyling, daryl and his friends. hmmm... that movie seems to be the edited version of e "Initial-D". kinda lousy i think... not worth watching.. sighh..

getting more and more shag each day.. i need my slp!!! sunday~~ my slping day~~!!
*sighh + yawn*

she didnt go home last nite... worried.. but what can we do? *sighhs*

feel like taking a long long break and have fun. *dreamin*

outing tmr.. wonder who'll turn up. *sighs*

It's been more than a month since i last blogged..
So many things happened during this 1 month..

got to know alot of new friends.. giggles* and had lots of fun too...

became a trial oper in #teen... seldom broadcast nowadays.. so much work to do in e office.. and too tired when i get home.. stress.. family.. r/s... frens... gosh..

i'm so busy lately..

alright.. updates:

went to a few outings... meeting doll every week..
doll aka wawa = mei mei. *giggles* a very sweet lil girl.. *kai xin guo*

During July:

had steamboat on 21st july to celebrate my bday... sadly.. weiyong and the rest werent with our group.. sighh.. hei and lizard nearly got into a fight with mel and puck.. bdae celebration was nv a gd one. :( fightings and stuff always reminds me of my dad.. T.T esp drinking.. haix

well... on my bdae... things didn't turn out that well.. for e day.. suppose to meet calvyn ard 5.. he's late again.. sighh.. and i was the one who asked him first. but he played bball and went to have his meal.. made me wait for tt extra hours again.. sighh.. kinda disappointed.. well... we went to watch the movie.. after tt had dinner... den went home.. he caught a fever that night.. recover the next day.. =\ it's always hard to ask him to take his medicine.. cos he always refuses to. =\

Durin our outings on july there'll be nick and wawa in the group.. nowadays... nick doesnt come out with us le... weiyong's weird too.. always bully me... and say nonsense.. things like "me and who are together.." i dun find it funny at all..

sigh... problems are coming up one by one again.. stress from work.. sigh.. due to the new project.. everyday i've got piles of work to do.. got to stop my chattings le... sObx

sighh... problems back at home.. *main prob* hopes that aunt will get her flat soon.. den i can move in with her.. sighh...

r/s: this prob will last for so long... hopes to be loved and dote on.. sighh.. when will e time come? it's been 7 mths plus le.. i still can't get over him.. luckily i'm quite busy recently so i dun have much time to think abt it.. sighh... should i give others a chance? will there be "others" to give at all? lolx..
i wonder...

frens: got to spend time with frens i know from irc and sec sch.. gosh.. it has been so long ever i last met up with my classmates and mandy and enen.. i miss them sooooo much. *muackx*

met up with the regulars of #teen 2 weeks ago i think.. cant rmb.. lolx.. outings are fun... esp with wawa ard.. and her giggles sound nice.. lolx.. that wad everybody thinks too.

oh yea... last sat... wawa, justin, lawry, des and i went to e plaza singapura arcade.. played the "jackpot" machine. u've got to put in $1 and e machine with e "hand" like thing will scoop up the goodies(sweets/small soft toy/biscuits/small toycars). wawa hit the jackpot 2 times and i hit 4. the both of us won lots of big big bags sweet tt could last us more den a yr if we're to take one each day. *giggles* she won 2 soft toys and exchanged it for a giant bugs bunny which is half of her size.. lolx.. she said it's quite heavy.. lolx.. i won 3 soft toys and 4 keychains (4 keychains = 1 soft toy) and exchanged 2 soft toy for 1 BIG HELLO KITTY!!! its so nice!!! and so i'm left with hello kitty and eeyore. *giggles*
wawa spend ard $60 on her collection and i spend ard $130 on mine.. lolx... can u imagine hw crazy we were? lolx.. had lots of fun tt day.. went to grandma's hse to celebrate her bdae.. i was late.. when i reach there.. she was already lying on her bed preparing to slp as she got to wake up early tmr to go to work. chit chat with her for e pass 30 mins i suppose... seldom had things to tok about.. was quite amazed tt we can actually tok for so long.. haha..


well.. thats all for july i suppose.

just bought my new mobile on 31 july 2006.. a motorola v3i. the phone aint easy to use.. as in e transferrin of files.. especially the itunes.. i keep uploading songs to it but couldn't find e songs anywhere at all! *almost fuming ytd nite* but was too tired too.. grrr

J O Y C E
-from a French word meaning "joy"
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.
I edited the blogskin using Firefox
so if you're viewing it by I.E,
it may look abit weird.

Life is so short...

Always live life to the fullest
to never regret a day in your life

Good days gives you happiness
Bad days gives you experiences

Both are essential to life
******************************

I appreciated all the help,
love, care and concern from
all my love ones and friends..
I thank you all for that and
"I Love You aLL Dearly"

**Life is all about choices..**
I've made them and regretted
sometimes.. Silly isn't it?
Now it's the time to look ahead
to think of the positive side
and make each day better
and brighter
than the day before


**Blog under construction...**

Save the environment
I'm trying too. What about you?
I want to grow taller.
I want to shed off 20kg
No more everyday blues

mY FRienDsteR pRoFiLe

My name is:
Joyce Ang Geok Ling
My Chinese name:
Hong Yuling
Also known as:
Reiko or Joyah
My age:
21
My Horoscope:
Cancer & Leo
My Zodiac:
Tiger


-Her Addiction-
-Hubby - Chen Weirong

-Her Loves-
-Family
-Friends
-Sleep/Napping
-The companion of love ones
-Attention (Majority loves that too right? =p)
-To hang out with my SingTel colleagues
-Sounds from the small water fountain
-STRAWBERRIES!!
-Shopping! I'm a shopaholic =p

Wishes:
-To own an apartment at East Coast
-To start my own business
-Have a career
-Own debut
-Car license
-A car
-My first SGD10,000

-Interest-
-Singing
-Piano
-Personal Grooming
-Kayaking
-Swimming
-Cycling
-Nap
-Nap + Suntan
-Star/Cloud gazing
-Camping

-Describe HER-
-Vainity
-Her bag of cosmetics
-Her long straight hair
-Constant whining about being fat
-Noisy & loud
-Crazy and very emotional
-Shy with strangers
-Petty
-Forgives but cannot forget
-Grumbles and mumbles a lot
-365 days, 7/1 whines non-stop
-Stingy


I've taken a few test and these are the answers
[I wonder if it's true....]:
At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

Never give up in yourself.
Have efficiency in the things you do.
You make your own choices.
If you have to fight for the things you deserve, then do it. If not, who will?
A lot of things starts with, "I wish to do it" or "I don't wish to do it"
What everybody owns now comes out from the one who dares to create,
think and dream.


If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I am imperfect.

-Nose Job
-Double Eyelids
-Long Lashes
-Bigger Eyes
-Thinner Lips
-To be skinny/underweight
-To be tall
-Ipod
-Sony Ericsson W910
-More pocket money
-New clothes
-New stiletto heels
-New Guess Bag and wallet
-New cosmetics
-To be pampered

LBedazzled
Dainty
LPristine
LRomance
LMagic
Melanie: CC486
Sassy Shirt: YN438
Slinky Slip: JN312
Sandra Slip: HD430
MICHELLE SLIP: YN439
Davina Slip: CC415

My family
Eldest Sis-Cyndi
Youngest Sis-Agnes
Cousin/Biaomei-Ivy

My Friend of 9 years and the company
Jo

Friends
My Nai-baby
Tania

Lovely Tng's
Ruvyn
Chervyn

Colleagues in SingTel [Telephoney House]
The one who has little lambs - Mary Teo
Little Red Riding Hood - Sam
The adorable - Lin Lin
The red fishball otah - Hong Yuan
The Lovely lady - Eka
The one who loves slapping flies - Lydia
Paparazzi no.2 - Xiu Zhi
Ask her about Korea - Khoon Yi
Mentor Zi Yang

Colleagues in Keppel [ComCentre]
Suriannie
Jasmine

Tortoise
Nicholas, Junyuan

IRC Friends
Shawn
Wee Leong
Alvin
angelgir
Felix
Jennier/iFish
Jing Ai
Anju
Jason
Justin
Bakieee
Lynnette

Friends
Belle

MUSIC SCHOOLS
Tiny Box Music
The Art of Music

The Impressive Singer

Felicia Chin
Patricia Mok
Dasmond Koh
Bryan Wong
Quan Yi Feng
None
None
None
None

Online Shops
Checkout
sweetgift
Fashion
Hello Kitty
Face Up Facet
Dora's Little Hut
Online Boutique - Butik Gue

Renee & Shop
Renee
Reneethy-million

UsefulLinks
Photoshop Tutorial

Interesting Links
Sudoku
Yuan Wei Ren
Rockson
a CUTE GIRL!! - Chloe

The People of Nuffnang
Constance
Judy
My Lacy Closet
The Samsui Lady
Daisy
Belle
Shiya
Simun
Qi
Chai Leng
Queenie

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