Tuesday, May 09, 2006
10:38:00 AM Y
The Story of Strawberry & Chocolate
♥ P O S T: 09.10.2006
sigh..
BG relationships are so tiring...
everything seems so fake...
so what if you give your 100%?
it doesnt last..
understanding.. reasonable.. compromise..
sweet.. trust.. time.. tolerance.. and so much more..
it will be a never-ending thing..
When i say "i love you" i meant it..
i worry i might fall for another so i decide not to forget..
but slowly.. it seems like you're erasing me out of your memories..
family, friends and school overwrite that..
so what if i move on?
i won't be happier..
because that wasnt what i want..
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You're bias to me and u want me to treat the rest nicely..
How do i do that when my tolerance is so limited..
I tried.. and i got a slap in return..
I've done everything for you but what have you done..
what am i to you?
will you love me like the rest?
i envy the others..
i cant stop that..
i asked myself "what can i do so i can share that love you give to the rest?"
but till now.. i still cant get an ans
you said you hate me..
gosh..
that stab hurts more than anything..
i tried to pick myself up on every fall..
i manage to grow slowly..
but deep inside..
i'm still deeply wounded..
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i'm dead..
no more the happy "deep down inside" smile
i've to fake it more naturally..
the happy moments that i've shared with my dearest friend can only lighten my day for that day and some few mins of the rest of my life only..
sigh..
the pain hurts so much more to the extend that it cant heal even if i really smiled...
Saturday, May 06, 2006
1:41:00 AM Y
The Story of Strawberry & Chocolate
♥ P O S T: 06.05.2006
sigh.. heart is aching.. sObx..
love him dearly but he'll never return... what can i do?
forget him? nah.. it wont be easy
Heart - shattered terribly
Monday, May 01, 2006
1:51:00 AM Y
The Story of Strawberry & Chocolate
♥ P O S T: tears
sOBx..
i was browsing thru friendster... came across one of his classmate's photo... in the collection of photos one showed e bdae celebration of his.. he smiled so happily.. tt means.. he really is happy without me.. and also.. that means.. i shouldnt bother him anymore.. which will cos more stress to him only..
*cryin*
my mom is always so anxious when one of her kids aint home yet.. she never did when i'm not ard.. seems like i've always been the extra one...
sigh.. + crying
conclusion of the day: when anyone is in trouble or needs help they'll look for me..
when i do.. the whole world seems so empty...
