You were the one who chose not to bother and why was it wrong of me to be the first to move on?

Isn't this selfish?

When I've come back, you chose to throw me a side once again. I'm confused.

If this is what you want..

I hope God will just take me away.

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Today just ain't my day. I was having anxiety for the past 2 nights and I couldn't sleep or rest well at all. Slept at around 5 plus in the morning for that 2 days. Stressed. I dread interviews. Tomorrow will be the doom's day. T____________T INTERVIEW!!!!!!!! *whining*

I can never get to have a talk with him whenever I feel troubled. He never wants to listen or have the patience to let me finish. sighh.. Everybody is feelin so moody at work today.

I drank half of a bottle of coffee milk despite knowing I have allergies for that. Had diarrhea and feeling nausea now.. Couldn't force the milk out of my stomach at all.

Why do I always feel that he takes me for granted? I think soon it'll be the time to put an end to this.

Sighh.. Where to get the clothings?!!! *Worries* I totally have no idea of what to wear tomorrow.

I couldn't stand the peacefulness in the house. It drives me crazy. It's worst when I'll be back at Cyn's place later.

Tomorrow will be another rant. Today will be an add-on to tomorrow's rant and mood swings will be carried forward till I can find peace in my mind.

*ROARS*

I want to get out of this terribly

*miserable*

We talked on the phone for 1 hour and ended it cause he's going for mahjong session at Ricky's house.

There's no more hope for my heels. Made in Thailand. =( All the cobblers say they couldn't fix it.

Jalan Raya tomorrow.


If moving on was so easy.. I wouldn't have.. you know..

I made this post during 25th of Oct 2007. I think it's time to post it.. If not, it's gonna hide in the draft corner for decades:

As I was editing the links, I suddenly thought of describing my colleagues in the post. =p

Sam
She reminds me of "The little red riding hood" due to her dress and the hoods that she likes. She loves/adore red things, likes to read sci-fiction, draw stars, real strawberries only, tops with stripes/hoods & not too girlie, sour food, not into R&B or hip-hop

Lin Lin aka Kong Kong
She's straight-forward. Will be fierce when she's moody or when someone agitates her (ie: being too lame) but normally she has a high level of tolerance with that. Sometimes she and fishball can argue for hours. Naive/innocent and adorable at the same time that's why she is very likable. Cartoon - her action looks like those animated characters. Like Sam or other girls she likes sour food.

Aszad (Lalat)
Very humorous and fun to be with. Loves chilli or spicy food. Nice person. Loves his girlfriend.

Sahera (My Darling)
She's noisy when her charming or lalat is around. She's very friendly & out-going but don't take it for granted for she can be fierce if you offended her. She's very straight-forward. Tends to be quiet when she's shy and smiles a lot. She gets easily stressed I suppose (from the way we look at her in the office lol). She likes to take photos. Adorable and can be highly disturbing.

Noorizan (Manager)
A very hardworking & diligent lady. She's very patient and you can see it from the way she does her work. She keeps a discreet profile and most of the time a soft-spoken person. Very highly disturbing. She's worst than my darling when it comes to disturbing me.

Weirong (Ah beng) [edited - Also my Hubby =p]
Before: He has a very fair complexion with rosy cheek and if he's blushing, his ears will go red too. He's the planner for outings on food. Gets grumpy when stressed.
[Edited] After: He's not a very sociable person but he is friendly and approachable. He is kind to the people around him. He likes to grumble, nag, and "bully" me. Let's just call my hubby a pighead. Well.. He gave me quite a few names too. -.-

Weihong (Mary)
He adores/loves red. If you notice, his name "Hong" rhymes with red.

HongYuan (Fishball/Otah)
He likes to disturb Lin Lin most of the time.

sigh.. I'm feeling so confused..

Jealousy fills in..

What should I do?

I want to be selfish...

joyah feels....

sad and emotional.. =(

since you enjoy talking to her so much, hmmpfx

*ROAR*

Still not feeling well..

The headache is making me dizzy and I couldn't read out small letterings today. haha

Wonder why does he have to off his mobile and why he doesn't call me but that girl. =/ *annoyed*

Here's something interesting for all readers:

According to a website, out of 100 Uni students 99 of them gave the wrong answer to this primary school math question.

There's a customer who went into Wang's shop to purchase a gift. The cost price of the gift is $18 selling at $21. The customer paid $100. As Wang does not have sufficient change he went to his neighbour to exchange the 100 dollars and returned the customer a change of $79. Later on, Wang's neighbour found out that the $100 is a counterfeit and Wang has to return his neighbour $100.

Question: How much did Wang lost in this transaction?

I've got the correct answer on my first attempt!! =p *prouds*

Click me!! - Cathay Residences

Oh my gosh..

I just know about this through the Cathay website.

It looks so nice!!
You'll get a chance to see the building when you're walking from The Cathay to Plaza Singpura.

How I wish I can stay there~~~~ =p

It has 75 two bedroom units and 1 three bedroom units.

I think prolly a lot of people might want to get a unit over there.

I still remember..

I was sitting in a mercedes benz white car with uncle, aunt and Ivy. The car was suppose to be able to park itself in the multi-storey carpark. All of a sudden, I was on top of another car and the white car had followed me. We were dashing down the carpark in a very high speed like taking the roller coaster. In this carpark, they had build a "go cart cum roller coaster" in it. People who went for the ride can choose to accelerate faster to avoid cars on the ground so that if the cars past by chances of being hit by the car is minimized.

I was going down at free fall speed then and everybody is chasing after us to stop the car. Someone has forgotten to off the engine and the car is going off without control. After a few rounds in the big multi-storey carpark we have finally been stopped by one of this person. Couldn't remember what exactly happened during the stop.. But it was a rocky ride.. scary.. I was brought to someone's place to rest for the mean while. Came into a room and saw 5 person in there.

A guy and his girfriend, a woman, a little girl and a man. I suppose the woman is her mother and the little girl is her sister. Suddenly the guy turned around and I was kinda shocked. Said hi to him but it seems like he couldn't recognise me at all..
The 2 of them looked so alike! His gf is very slim, tall and pretty, with a long straight hair like me but perhaps even softer. I feel so sad all of a sudden.. In the dream, I showed him the photos we took and some of his own on my phone. They didn't believe me and thought I was some psycho who stole his photos and edited them. I kept staring at him.. He was smiling all along. Very happy I supposed.

A few more mins later aunt woke me up..

The dream bothers me..
Feeling...
upset now.. =(

Thought of going to work without my make-up tomorrow, but as usual I think I might scare the hell out of them. lolx. :p

It has been a long time ever since I get to chat with Nimi.. Thinking about those days again.. Hopefully she wont go off-line too soon.. Talking to her now..

It's nice to lie down on my bed and using the lap top :x

Thoughts of moving back to Cyndi's place.. But theres some problem if I want to. About the desktop. Prolly got to stay till uncle gets a new one. =D

I want to upgrade the ram!!! Vista is really very very slow :(

There's some problem posting this post today. :/ Wonder why..

There's an ad on my blog... AdSense.. But I think I'll try to figure out how to put on the ads some other day. Not tonight. Tired.. Got to work tomorrow. Meeting Nimi and Nan at 5.35 just after work at City Hall MRT Control Station.

*yawns*

Contract with SingTel is gonna end soon.. Wondering whether to extend or not.. Seems like the rest ain't interested at all :(

was reading the first few post I made back in 2005.

Laughing at myself..

Came across a blog which has almost the same blog add as mine strawberriesandchocolates.blogspot.com =/

I wonder why does that person reserves 3!!! add which is similar to mine but has no post at all. lame -.-

On her original blog, there isn't any updates at all too.

It bothers me a lot =/

Hmmm..

I just notice something weird about that line below the pictures of my new blogskin.

"Lies a person totally different from what the eye can see."

Sounds weird, like there's something wrong with the grammar. Anyway, it's not something I can change it. =( Thought of that but Ivy said it's not possible unless I'm able to come up with another picture to match the blogskin. She's not free to help me with it so I guess I have to let it be there till I create another picture or I change to another blogskin which is impossible for the moment. It takes up too much time to shift and replace certain things.

*Lazy*

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

I'm finally done with my new blogskin!!!

Nice? hee~ Thanks for the comment Sam Sam~! =D


I like the colour combination. Got this blogskin from one website and decided to make some amendments to it. =D

Bought a new pillow today. *grinx*

Changing to my new blogskin. Doing the edits now.

Certain things to add on...

First Attempt in Singing Competition: 09/09/2006
Project Superstar II - OUT

sigh... The song of "Elliott Yamin - Wait for You" brings back memories of that 3 years plus we shared. The day he sang and composed that song for me, the sweet little moments, his love and etc, tearing in my heart.

Love is so fragile. Time passes by so slowly and people changes.

Elliott Yamin - Wait For You

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep runnin' down my face
Why did you turn away

[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
(crazy)
How can you walk away
(When)
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just, just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie
What you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll be waiting...

Thurday. I turned him down. I didn't want to be that bad girl. How can I live with that kind of guilt?

Disappointed? Think again. I guess if your girlfriend knew, she'll be even more disappointed in you. You're the one cheating on your girlfriend not me.

Holidays!!! Vacations!! =( I need them badly...

oh dear.. feelin so down lately.. *sObx* i need some hugs.. (the bad thing about being single..) T.T

The start of this week is totally crappy.

Monday
That cab driver made me late.. I got in the cab around 8.50. The cab should reach in 15 mins time if theres no traffic jam. There wasn't any on that day. That cab driver made me paid for 3 ERP charges. The first one was $0.50, the 2nd was $1.00 and the last one was $2.00. wth.. including the peak hour charge $2 i paid a total of $16.10. wth -.- from Ang Mo Kio to Hill Street the normal charges with a heavy traffic flow would cost about $8.90. damn =/

In the afternoon lalat was angry with me about the topic on swimming.. He said it's alright after work.. (everything seems to be back to normal today.. but i still feel a bit awkward.. =( sigh)

At night Jo was frustrated about the lost of direction. We were "touring" in the expressway.

what a bad day...........

What will happen if you find out? Words like those in my mind will never come out from my mouth.

I need some drinks to knock me out. I need to cry it all out but I couldn't. I've got to keep it in me. Do you know how it feels like?

Put on a little bit of weight, looks pale and weird with that hairstyle.

I'm not fat? You need to change your specs.

I need to shed more weight. I can't grow tall anymore. Is heels acceptable? I want my surgery. Scrimp and save!! Tough job. Almost impossible.

I...

*muackx. nite and sweet dreams. cya again*

Lolx.. ever since I've changed my blog, no one is able to get the link. Well, let's just be a bit discreet for a little more..

Today was a bad day. Moody. My heart has been crying out loud. Almost teared.

Met my ex-classmates and went to east coast for g.k's birthday celebration. Saw en but seems like she don't want to talk to me. Whatever. I think I just couldn't be bothered to clear things up. If she doesn't understand then it seems like there isn't any point of explaining. I sometimes wonder does she really treat me as one of her closer friends. =/ Before the interview and till she got the job, things didn't work out well between the 2 of us. Many other people has problems with each other making mostly all the occasions unhappy. Don't they ever consider about the people around them? Why doesn't she understands? What's so good about joking on that "ah-lian" attitude? If we can tolerate in the past does it mean that we have to even we told you that we didn't like it? I'm being straight forward and honest so that you will stop it. Sometimes I really ain't at the mood on that kind of jokes you know. I'm a very emotional person, not many has shared their time listen to my whining nor you. I'm already upset and I really couldn't take the jokes or your whinings too. I just want to chill and have some peace. Instead of that, you brought the other problem out with us and spoilt the day. I thought we've always wanted fun when we're out but it seems like it is so impossible when you bring he/she along.

*I need my peace.

sigh.. Am I really like those girls? *emo-ing*

I really enjoyed being with you but it seems like all were just an..

So this is what you think of me.. ='(

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If I am jealous of course I won't say it out right?

feelin so confused...

No applications for today.. 1 order = pending order (waiting for order close)

I can never express it out neither should I..


Joyah can do it!!

*bless me please*

-cries-

Went to the Yishun Stadium few hours back. Ran 2 rounds only. It's either I'm putting on too much weight and couldn't lift up my 2 heavy legs or.. Alright.. I'm weak -.-

Fishball ran the most 7 rounds, Mary ran 5 then Sam about 5 too I think and Lin Lin ran 2 1/2 rounds to accompany me..

They ordered lots of food and we played the same game we played on Saturday.

Feelin tired now...

Nite folks..

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*sigh... He did not reply...

Read this on a female magazine and thought of sharing it with all, "Her World" under section - herworld his say:

"Real men don't behave badly"
Excuse me a bit while I deprecate Singaporean men's lack of chivalry. I was brought up in an era when the men in movies, no matter how tough they were, would get out of the car just to open the passenger-side door for the lady to step in.

Which is why I believe the common practice of Singaporean men driving to a date's home, only to honk at the gate to inform her of his arrival, to be despicable. "She's your date, not the newspaper seller by the roadside," I grumble to myself.

I can still remember my introduction to the old-world charm of chivalry. I was 14, and hopelessly in love with a lanky classmate. We would walk to the bus-stop after school every day, chatting about sweet nothing and everything. One day, my English teacher, a lady schooled the "old way" who wore petticoats and stockings, pulled me aside with this tip: "Danny, gentlemen always walk on the outside."

My teacher was referring to my boorishness, after seeing my girlfriend and I strolling outside school. I had been walking on the (gasp!) inside of the footpath furthest from the road, while my girl was nearer to the road. According to my teacher, the gentleman always walks on the outside, in case a car mounts the kerb. The next day, I remember my girlfriend was super-impressed when I told her why I insisted we swopped places.

From her smile, I was sold on the idea of chivalry from that day on.

I am old-school this way. I will fiercely support all moves to improve gender equality in Singapore, but when it comes to chivalry, I think men should show all courtesies to our womenfolk.

The way I justify it is that Singaporean women already have a lot on their minds: carving career when gender discrimination still exists; motherhood and all the pains involved; caveman-like husbands who still think that women are here to wash our socks and bring us beer.

I think that us men owe it to our women to give them some good ol' charm and courtesy, simply because they deserve to be pampered.

I do, however, empathise with those who are inclined to do chivalrous acts, but are afraid of the fallout.

I was speaking to some Danish friends recently, and they explained that even in their country, where equality with the sexes is written into government policy, lots of dating pitfalls apparently exist for men.

one of them shared his frustration about a date who became indignant and felt that her womanhood was insulted when he opened a door for her (thus implying her inability to open her own doors).
but when they later shared a pizza, and it was time to pay, she expected him to foot the bill.

Woe is the chivalrous Singaporean male?

i doubt it. my advice to my fellow Singaporean men: Fret not, for it is better to be chivalrous and have it backfire, than to not be chivalrous at all. Men should shower the women in our lives with those extra bits of niceness because it will not only pamper the women, but it will also make us guys feel good. And most of the time, our chivalry will be amply rewarded as most women, I suspect, are secretly waiting for that proverbial knight to sweep them off their feet.

Just keep in mind that you hold her gently but firmly, as falling from a horse is no fun at all. HW

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5 stars!!! =x

J O Y C E
-from a French word meaning "joy"
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.
I edited the blogskin using Firefox
so if you're viewing it by I.E,
it may look abit weird.

Life is so short...

Always live life to the fullest
to never regret a day in your life

Good days gives you happiness
Bad days gives you experiences

Both are essential to life
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I appreciated all the help,
love, care and concern from
all my love ones and friends..
I thank you all for that and
"I Love You aLL Dearly"

**Life is all about choices..**
I've made them and regretted
sometimes.. Silly isn't it?
Now it's the time to look ahead
to think of the positive side
and make each day better
and brighter
than the day before


**Blog under construction...**

Save the environment
I'm trying too. What about you?
I want to grow taller.
I want to shed off 20kg
No more everyday blues

mY FRienDsteR pRoFiLe

My name is:
Joyce Ang Geok Ling
My Chinese name:
Hong Yuling
Also known as:
Reiko or Joyah
My age:
21
My Horoscope:
Cancer & Leo
My Zodiac:
Tiger


-Her Addiction-
-Hubby - Chen Weirong

-Her Loves-
-Family
-Friends
-Sleep/Napping
-The companion of love ones
-Attention (Majority loves that too right? =p)
-To hang out with my SingTel colleagues
-Sounds from the small water fountain
-STRAWBERRIES!!
-Shopping! I'm a shopaholic =p

Wishes:
-To own an apartment at East Coast
-To start my own business
-Have a career
-Own debut
-Car license
-A car
-My first SGD10,000

-Interest-
-Singing
-Piano
-Personal Grooming
-Kayaking
-Swimming
-Cycling
-Nap
-Nap + Suntan
-Star/Cloud gazing
-Camping

-Describe HER-
-Vainity
-Her bag of cosmetics
-Her long straight hair
-Constant whining about being fat
-Noisy & loud
-Crazy and very emotional
-Shy with strangers
-Petty
-Forgives but cannot forget
-Grumbles and mumbles a lot
-365 days, 7/1 whines non-stop
-Stingy


I've taken a few test and these are the answers
[I wonder if it's true....]:
At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

Never give up in yourself.
Have efficiency in the things you do.
You make your own choices.
If you have to fight for the things you deserve, then do it. If not, who will?
A lot of things starts with, "I wish to do it" or "I don't wish to do it"
What everybody owns now comes out from the one who dares to create,
think and dream.


If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I am imperfect.

-Nose Job
-Double Eyelids
-Long Lashes
-Bigger Eyes
-Thinner Lips
-To be skinny/underweight
-To be tall
-Ipod
-Sony Ericsson W910
-More pocket money
-New clothes
-New stiletto heels
-New Guess Bag and wallet
-New cosmetics
-To be pampered

LBedazzled
Dainty
LPristine
LRomance
LMagic
Melanie: CC486
Sassy Shirt: YN438
Slinky Slip: JN312
Sandra Slip: HD430
MICHELLE SLIP: YN439
Davina Slip: CC415

My family
Eldest Sis-Cyndi
Youngest Sis-Agnes
Cousin/Biaomei-Ivy

My Friend of 9 years and the company
Jo

Friends
My Nai-baby
Tania

Lovely Tng's
Ruvyn
Chervyn

Colleagues in SingTel [Telephoney House]
The one who has little lambs - Mary Teo
Little Red Riding Hood - Sam
The adorable - Lin Lin
The red fishball otah - Hong Yuan
The Lovely lady - Eka
The one who loves slapping flies - Lydia
Paparazzi no.2 - Xiu Zhi
Ask her about Korea - Khoon Yi
Mentor Zi Yang

Colleagues in Keppel [ComCentre]
Suriannie
Jasmine

Tortoise
Nicholas, Junyuan

IRC Friends
Shawn
Wee Leong
Alvin
angelgir
Felix
Jennier/iFish
Jing Ai
Anju
Jason
Justin
Bakieee
Lynnette

Friends
Belle

MUSIC SCHOOLS
Tiny Box Music
The Art of Music

The Impressive Singer

Felicia Chin
Patricia Mok
Dasmond Koh
Bryan Wong
Quan Yi Feng
None
None
None
None

Online Shops
Checkout
sweetgift
Fashion
Hello Kitty
Face Up Facet
Dora's Little Hut
Online Boutique - Butik Gue

Renee & Shop
Renee
Reneethy-million

UsefulLinks
Photoshop Tutorial

Interesting Links
Sudoku
Yuan Wei Ren
Rockson
a CUTE GIRL!! - Chloe

The People of Nuffnang
Constance
Judy
My Lacy Closet
The Samsui Lady
Daisy
Belle
Shiya
Simun
Qi
Chai Leng
Queenie

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